"Underneath everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be loved and appreciated"
A friend of mine had recently experienced 'failure to connect'. And as he was giving me a play-by-play of the demise of a nearly 3 years relationship, I sat there staring into oblivion, fazed, when I think of how a relatively small, minuscule of a problem could in fact have such disastrous complications. And yet the person my friend was describing seem to bear uncanny similarities to who I was a year ago.
It was a year ago that I experienced one of the many lessons of life, of love. And I admit, I had the wind knocked out of me. Up to this day I have not been able to find my own two feet, yet. I find that we tend to act accordingly to our beliefs and expectations. What we think is right, and aint nobody gonna change that! We build up a wall around this and hold our ground. That is until we instill trust in someone dear. Someone whom we deem 'capable of living up to all those beliefs & expectations'.
BUT. After we have found this special someone, time goes by and we fall into a false sense of security, comfort zone and invulnerableness, if I may call it that. The wall is put up again, stronger, more adamant. This, people, is EGO. A now taboo word in my dictionary, can act discreetly. Slowly creeping up on even the most soft-hearted of people. Its nothing to be blamed for, for we are able to exert self-control if noted early. In some cases however, it goes by undetected until the other party decides; theyve had enough. Then, you're the one with the big L stamped across your forehead: LOSER.
Come 365 days later, I see things in a different light. I see the bigger picture and I'm off the high horse now. Ever since the relationship died, I had more time to myself to think, I've cared more for my friends, the good bunch and by doing this, I was indirectly reflecting back on the past mistakes. Where it went wrong. and I realize that trying to rectify it now wouldnt be doing any justice. I wanna do things differently next time round.
I am not someone trying to be smart. I've just learned things along the way and sharing it. There's a big difference there, can you tell?
It was a year ago that I experienced one of the many lessons of life, of love. And I admit, I had the wind knocked out of me. Up to this day I have not been able to find my own two feet, yet. I find that we tend to act accordingly to our beliefs and expectations. What we think is right, and aint nobody gonna change that! We build up a wall around this and hold our ground. That is until we instill trust in someone dear. Someone whom we deem 'capable of living up to all those beliefs & expectations'.
BUT. After we have found this special someone, time goes by and we fall into a false sense of security, comfort zone and invulnerableness, if I may call it that. The wall is put up again, stronger, more adamant. This, people, is EGO. A now taboo word in my dictionary, can act discreetly. Slowly creeping up on even the most soft-hearted of people. Its nothing to be blamed for, for we are able to exert self-control if noted early. In some cases however, it goes by undetected until the other party decides; theyve had enough. Then, you're the one with the big L stamped across your forehead: LOSER.
Come 365 days later, I see things in a different light. I see the bigger picture and I'm off the high horse now. Ever since the relationship died, I had more time to myself to think, I've cared more for my friends, the good bunch and by doing this, I was indirectly reflecting back on the past mistakes. Where it went wrong. and I realize that trying to rectify it now wouldnt be doing any justice. I wanna do things differently next time round.
I am not someone trying to be smart. I've just learned things along the way and sharing it. There's a big difference there, can you tell?
1 comment:
you bet, but i can tell.
heh
however then again, i seek for ur advice right?
thank u so much love
;D
i x byk kwn so i feel v special when i have that sumone around
:)
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