Lost cause.

I buried myself under my books for so long that I nearly got sick yesterday. Imagine me, on a chair, practically the whole day straight. So I think I deserve a little break time.

I havent been myself lately. I'm stressing out to the max over my trial exams when usually I just kick back and go with the flow. I've been too caught up in studying that when I look in the mirror, I dont see me. I've been stocking up on caffeine and junk food just to get through the long nights resulting in coffee-stained teeth and a folding tummy. My back has now arched to a nearly cresent shaped hump and dont get me started on the dark circles of saggy eye bags. What an achievement eh. Oh Ayah called from London last night since I didnt get a chance to speak to him before he left. I told him I wanted one of those tshirt which says ''My dad went to London and all I got was this lousy tshirt'' just cause I think they're cool. And if any of you thinks otherwise, then screw you.

To those who feel I've been neglecting my duties as a friend, I'm sorry. I just hope you can understand that I'm trying to take care of myself now. Trying to do what's best for me and I cant keep trying to please everyone. Just one more week to go ok?

And what I hate most is that its at times like these, its when I need You most, You're not there. You are my complete opposite where I can escape to but now I dont have a clue as to where you are. I hope you're doing ok. I made you something. I hope you like it.

Let me just point out one last thing, if from reading my blog, you judge me as a depressed, emo-sick person, well lets meet up and you can see that I'm not. I write, to feel better about myself cause I feel that my feelings are expressed better in black and white. If you have a problem with that then take it up with someone who cares.