When will it end?

'Yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendung berciciran'

I'm in dilemma. It's because of you I've blamed myself.
It's because of you, I hurt the people around me.
Subconsciously or not.
But I cant hate you.
I dont want to not know you.
I CANT not know you.
Because to me, its always been you.

Still my favourite picture to date.