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I knew it would be hard. I just didnt think it'd be this hard.
You know when you look back on things, and you think "oh man, that was stupider than stupid and that dint come out right." and you ask for a do over. Yeah, I've been asking for a lot of that lately. From myself mostly. Reflecting recent times, the more I think, the more I feel there are soo many things I would want to and could do differently given the chance to do so. Andddd I've put a lot of thought into this, and with a heavy heart, I've decided to stop writing here for a bit and I'm gonna focus on getting better first. On being better.
Regardless, the stories of you and I, will forever be my favourite life chapters.
How long you ask? -To be perfectly honest, I dont know. I dont know how long it will take. Maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe a year or two. I honestly dont know. But godwilling, insyaAllah He helps heal our individual hurts, and lets me find myself once more. Then, I'll be back. Different and changed. Better.
It wasnt exactly what typical fairytales were made of, but when I think about fairytale endings, theres no one that fits my fairytale story more than you do.
In the meantime, I promise you wont be missing much. I'll probably pack on a few more kilos this month attending eid open houses and all. Squeeze in a bit more travelling while I can still afford it, pick up where I left off on my scuba diving, finish off my wish-list and be busy trying to get that Bachelor in Dental Surgery to show after all this time (and people asking!) I'll still be around occasionally on instagram and limited to 140 letter ramblings on twitter. And if you really miss me, there's always the old fashioned way! I generally talk well over breakfast, lunch or dinner - basically anything that involves food! Oh, and if you do happen to see me around, dont be a stranger. I dont bite!
So thanks for checking in. This is me, signing off indefinitely...
Mad love,
Peja xx
"The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too." -Ernest Hemingway, Men Without Women.
4 comments:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Come backkkk
I have known you for ever so long and no one deserves happiness more than you do. I hope you find it.
You are such a tender hearted girl, it saddens me to see you hurting this badly. So take as long as you need, and come back stronger. I know you have so much love to give, it'll be a shame if you dont move on.
Come back please?
none of this is true?
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