Pillow Talk.

Roughly about a month ago, I was faced with some pretty tough decisions to make about moving forward in life. The options that were available came with all sorts of pros and cons and not to mention a gazillion other factors that I had to take into consideration in having to make the final decision. and you know how people always say your 20's are the prime years for you to do what you want, be with who you want and live for yourselves, not anyone else? Well, if only it was as easy as that eh? 

And now, a month after making the final call and being back here in Her Majesty's Land, I'm starting to question myself on whether it was the wisest choice. It's difficult to be rational when my mood swings are full blown crazy right now. Yes, I did cry 5 different times since I've been back on Wednesday and yes, I am blaming it on the fact I am a fragile, homesick and homeless hobo living out of a suitcase seeking refuge from kindhearted friends in a small flat in NorthWest London. 

The last few days have been a little bit on the harder side for me. Not for any big reason, sometimes I just let silly things get to me eventhough I know I shouldnt. but thing is, I hate that I havent got a place to call home, I'm in unfamiliar territory and that I have to do this all on my own. Lets be honest, it pretty much sucks! I was walking around the neighbourhood a couple of days ago just trying to find the post office and get some groceries but even that proved to be a mammoth task as I didnt know where anything was around here. I've taken great pride in myself over the positive progress I have made in the last year, but the last few days, my energy has been a bit lower. And life is far less fun when you're in the slumps. Its at times like these that I'm so close to picking up that phone and calling that first number I can think of. Sigh.

So I'm gonna make a big effort tomoro to kick it. To be kind to myself and carry on. Cause tough times dont last, tough people do. We'll see, but just thought I'd share it here. Sometimes everyone needs a place to vent, right? :)

Happy Sunday! 

Peja xx